Soap - Trust, Word, Everything

S: Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding,
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.

Do not be wise in your own eyes;
Fear the Lord and turn away from evil.

Proverbs 3:5-7

O: In all my reading in the book of Proverbs, a long time ago in a late night bible study (not unlike this one, in fact...), I stumbled across this gold mine of wisdom and I was so thrilled to have found such wisdom and insight in plain sight. At the time, I didn't know that it was a verse used often amongst a lot of people, so it became a "special" or now what I'd call a life verse to me-used often and put in all my info boxes for blogs and so forth.

Reflecting on it again...I only read it as a set of verses then, and I hope that (by God's grace) it would be more than just a set of verses, but an application to this life.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding,
In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He will make your paths straight.

The first three lines encompass instructions while the last encompasses a promise (this coming from a dude blessed with wisdom from God, Himself). And so, they are simple instructions for relying upon God's providence:

(O/A:) Trust in the Lord with all your heart - First I must trust God with all my heart. Oh, how easily words can tell one story, but how often people fail at the very first step. Trusting God has much more to do with how I should place a complete faith in how God is handling my life-He knows best, as He is indeed the potter and He will mold the clay. Should the pot say to it's potter, "No, I cannot trust you to make me anew or whole (when I am broken)!" - It would be absurd, but I see that image in my life every time I fail to pray when trouble strikes or when I am not at peace because I fail to remember that it should stem from the finished work of Christ.

And do not lean on your own understanding - This screams out to me "READ THE BIBLE AND UNDERSTAND IT. CAUSE YOUR KNOWLEDGE SUCKS AND IT LEADS YOU TO NOTHING BUT CRAP." Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men (1 Cor 1:25). I would be willing to bet my life that if I were to consult the Word and enter into prayer (trusting in the Lord to be faithful) every time something went crazily bad or horrifying, I'd be living upon the Lord's providence with no qualms or complaint-Why? Because, I'd see Him faithfully carrying out the promises of His Word every single dang time-and how could I doubt someone who never fails? I must not lean upon my own understanding, not because I've seen innumerous occasions of God being faithful (though I have seen His faithfulness, many times), but because I can see how many times I fail myself with my own logic and understanding of life. Here is a basic application of not trusting oneself, because we are too unreliable, too finite, and too weak to get through anything on our own. I will not lean on any understanding other than the Lord's, set before me in the Word.

In all your ways acknowledge Him - Praise Him, worship Him. Give yourself up as a living sacrifice to God. Yield to the Lord of Lords and take all measures to give Him glory. I like how this particular part of Scripture says to acknowledge God in all our ways-for me, that sounds like: "Obey Him and be holy, praise Him through the gifts He gave You, and love and enjoy Him to no end." It feels like as if the Word is saying, just soak Him in-make Him your delight and absolute center in this life. In all ways I will acknowledge Him!

And He will make your paths straight. Sweetness, do all that and you're pretty much good to go-it's not easy, but to think that we could go about life with such peace of heart and mind is quite the blessing. So I need to trust God wholeheartedly, lean upon His Word for understanding, and give all I have in my life to God-and I will be guaranteed to know that God will make my path straight. What does that even actually mean? Does it mean I'll see where I'm going? That God will reveal to me exactly, step by step where He intends for me to be? I'm not entirely sure, and I don't think I'll find out until I actually go about trusting God with all my heart, leaning upon His understanding, and giving all aspects of my life over to Him. Trying and hoping!

P: Lord, it's a comfort to know that You intend the best for Your children. Saying that sounds almost absurd, because You're the ultimate Father-but I think it takes a lot of time for the message to sink in. Your children need a load of discipline, after all-myself, being one of many who need it particularly often. I'm sorry for the desire of my flesh, which I yield to less (praises, all thanks to You) these days, but have fallen to yet again-Make me whole again, I'm so unclean and unworthy to come before You at such times-but, I know You respond true to my repentance. Take me in and really run with me on trusting You-I think it's so hard for someone like me to even trust that the future isn't some haze, undecided and uncertain due to the fact that I've dug myself into a financial/academic pit. But, I will trust You and Your Word because Your Word...tells me to (LOL). Take everything, God-I want to know the peace in placing my trust in You. Give me the strength to do so, especially in the times when it is crucial to turn to You-I know I won't be able to do it on my own accord, so bring remembrance to me when I am struck down by the pains of this world and let me exchange it for the peace of trusting You. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Beloved by the Lord

S: But we should always give thanks to God for you, brethren beloved by the Lord, because God has chosen you from the beginning for salvation through sanctification by the Spirit and faith in the truth. It was for this He called you through our gospel, that you may gain the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ.

2 Thessalonians 2:13-14

O: When I read this, I had two immediate thoughts-that this piece of Scripture is yet again another example of how predestination is an immediate truth in the Word and then I realized how that immediate truth applies to me and how truly blessed are those whom this truth applies to.

Yet again, Paul calls for another round of applause for the Lord because of the fact that God had predestined who would be saved and who would be judged. I used to think, how is that even worthy of thanksgiving? There are people who will inevitably go to Hell and will be judged for all eternity-and I would ask myself and wonder why does that have to happen? I would childishly think that if God "loved" everyone, He would save everyone.

But of course, I realized later in my walk with Christ that God would be fully justified in condemning all to Hell for all eternity. Here, I see the clearest example of grace in Christ-that God could have withheld His Son and He would still be just and glorious, and yet-God, in such deep love that can't be expressed explicitly with words, did not even withhold His Son for that He would make some His objects of mercy rather than wrath. And every time I picture this, I see the Judge Himself coming down from the podium to say, "I will take their offense upon my own head." God is just, and He did not let the transgressions in my life to go unpunished-but, how much He must have loved me to go in my place...

So, now I come to the conclusion that predestination is a wonderful thing-because, it reminds me everyday of how I receive unmerited favor from God, which brings me to the understanding that there is a great deal of thanks to be given-thanks that lasts for eternity in fact, for an eternal consequence that I could not shift on my own. Today, like everyday is a reminder-but today I feel that God is telling me outright to look to Jesus and the cross.

A: I will give thanks, I will give praise, I will give all I have-because I was chosen and I was taken in, despite my wretchedness. I will remember that predestination is not just some Calvinist belief that others choose to believe or not believe, but in my case-it is yet another sign that points to the Gospel and the act that was and is so beyond me.

P: God, to You be all thanks and all praise and all glory. Your Son has immeasurable worth-You are so worthy of the highest honor. You picked me out before I was formed in the womb of my mother and look now! I'm no overt saint or holy man, by any means-I am a sinner, but Your Spirit sanctifies this broken soul-I pray that You would be so glorified in me, that You would be proud and joyful in molding faithfulness in someone who never deserved to be this close, or to receive anything but wrath from You. Thank You for the life You give and the life You gave. But Father, give me a devotion worthy of Your calling-someone who is enamored by Your every word and every movement. All these things for Your glory, in Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Rejoice, pray, and give thanks

S: Live in peace with one another. We urge you, brethren, admonish the unruly, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with everyone, See that no one repays another with evil for evil, but always seek after that which is good for one another and for all people. Rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. Do not quench the Spirit; do not despise prophetic utterances, But examine everything carefully; hold fast to that which is good; abstain from every form of evil.

1 Thessalonians 5:13-22

O: Live in peace with one another. God calls the church to be unified-But everyday I see many instances of disunity and conflict in the church. The hungry aren't fed, the broken aren't comforted, and the list goes on. It's not as though the church needs to shape-shift to meet the needs of everyone, but rather...the church needs to obey God in the sense that we should "always seek after that which is good for one another and for all people." Such a command is not found to be easy to follow because it is a collective effort for the body of Christ to reach out to the hurt, hungry, and broken.

(A:) A really simple application to my observation of the unity in the church is to reach out. My heart naturally goes out to the troublemakers (probably because I was one myself) that don't draw a good crowd around them. If every single person in the church took one moment in their day on a Sunday to physically lay hands on someone and pray for them, I bet there would be so many people who would be so encouraged-to say we will pray for someone after hearing their struggles or problems is one thing, but to simply be the hands and feet of Christ, even just for a moment could drastically change people and their mindset towards one another. I have been trying to do this for some time, but I think I've been failing to see the opportunities to pray for someone because my heart has been on the cloudy side-but I hope that I can recognize the need and reach out to someone.

(O:) The latter half of this portion of Scripture is my favorite though! Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, and in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

This is a very practical way to follow Christ-because the truth of the matter is that our spirit should constantly be encouraged by the fact that God has chosen us, saved us, and continues to do a good work in us daily! What reason is there to not rejoice? None at all!

And to pray without ceasing-what a command, what a discipline-but I believe that if we are to be reminded of the constant joy in our lives, we ought to meditate on the great privilege and joy in knowing Christ at all times. Why should we draw away from God at times to sink into the world, only to return to Him during "sacred" times of prayer or church gatherings? To pray ceaselessly goes hand in hand with the command of rejoicing always.

And in everything give thanks, because every moment is given to us by God. Every moment is another gift and means of living for Him. Even in the darkest and most troubling times, when we pray ceaselessly, we are reminded that Christ is still who He is, and that joy is still found in Him-and so, we give thanks at all times.

(A:) So what shall I do, but obviously take in my daily bread (like now) and pray ceaselessly-it's not as if I need to be crying out every moment for salvation of others or desperately interceding for the worlds behalf (although, I probably should do those things on a daily basis as well of course), but to be with Him and set my heart towards Him at all times. And by doing so, I will rejoice and give thanks at all times.

P: Lord, it all points to Your Son-if it were not for Your grace, there would be no hope. How kind You are and how wonderful and blessed am I to be treated with Your love. You are a God who calls His people to be joyful, and for good reason! I praise the fact that You do not push to confuse or to set upon me, blind commandments-but that You set an order amidst Your kingdom and that in Your Word, there is real truth and sense. Father, on so many days, I forget to think upon Your cross and I fail to be joyous, caught up with my worldly concerns and pleasures. Forgive my wandering heart, I will try my best to apply myself in praying ceaselessly, so that I may find true joy-not in the actual prayer or reading of Your Word, but in Christ, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. Help me Holy Spirit, it's no easy feat for a mere man to set his heart upon Christ, no matter how sweet You may be-my heart is deceptive and I am foolish, but make me wise in Your Word and prone to obeying truth found in Him. May You unify Your people through the faithful who long for the good of everyone-and those who take action to turn hearts toward You. All these things I pray in Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Possess the Vessel

S: For this is the will of God, your sanctification that is, that you abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor...

1 Thessalonians 4:3-4

O: I understand the first half of this verse pretty well-as it's kind of laid out straight: Paul, telling the Thessalonians that sanctification is something that is necessary as God wills it in the walk with Christ; sexual immorality being pegged in particular.

It must be tough on pastors today, as it's probably the biggest issue amongst men in the church-Seeing as discussing sex is a bit of a taboo amongst men, I can see why Paul would address it so clearly and specifically; I think I can safely assume that people during biblical times were just as open with their sexual sins in public as much as people today (which is pretty much zero).

Which reminds me that discipleship is probably the only sure-fire way the church can address such sins-which seem to be tucked very deep in the conscience of every guy that walks around church. I think the only time I've ever been completely honest about my sexual immorality is when I'm being discipled or when I've discussed it with Jun, when drawing out a 'battle plan' together to fight it. But, even with the older guys in my life, I find it very hard to share or to even bring it up, which poses to be a problem in many ways, as I have nobody to keep me accountable, which makes it doubly hard to bear, and perhaps even more shame on my conscience.

(A:) The problem is that I haven't opened up to the Pathway dudes that I hang out with. Gleaning from the observations and Scripture, sexual immorality pretty much uproots spiritual life like it's nothing if it's left to fester on the heart. I know it's a fight I can't win alone-especially when I think I can pray it out or recite Scripture, but I feel that a good application would be to take initiative and open up to my trusted brothers in Christ. It wasn't exactly how I wanted it to happen, but-realizing that sexual sin (as Paul saw it, early on in church ministry) damages a great deal of Christians, I should take heed of the verse and consider sanctification as a great priority-especially sexual sin, in specifics. I'll find someone to keep me accountable.

"that each of you know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor..."

What does this actually mean? Possess my own vessel...in sanctification and honor. I almost feel like this is a part of the application!

The knowledge: Where does this knowledge come from? The Word? Knowledge is often practical and logical information that could be used for one's own benefit. Where can I get the actual knowledge of possessing my own vessel in sanctification and honor?

...of being able to posses my own vessel: Vessel, like my body and spirit? And how can I possess my own vessel? It's not as if I can will myself to be cleansed from sin or anything. But I think this means that my own physical and mental effort contributes to the resulting work of the Holy Spirit. I suppose the heart of that effort can only truly come from the Holy Spirit as well-so...I should probably pray for the willingness to obey the call to sexual purity and sanctification.

...in sanctification and honor: Continued work of Holy Spirit in me to cleanse me of sin.

Seeing that sanctification isn't some kind of passive process where I lollygag in this life and wait for the Holy Spirit to boot up and download sanctification packets in my brain or whatever-I understand that from this passage that I'm going to have to press myself towards sanctification and choose it if I am to see this particular portion of God's will in my life. This means making an active effort to shut out temptation by all means necessary.

P: Father, your Word is good. It is righteous and it embodies who You are and what You are like. Your call is righteous and it is praiseworthy-because You are holy, You call Your people to be holy as well. It's tough, though-sexual sin is the big finisher that always seems to crush and take me down. I don't know how to even hate it or avoid it, because in all honesty-when I sin, I choose that sin over You, and I'm sorry that I can even do that. Lord, teach me to possess my vessel in sanctification and honor. Give me a desire for purity and give me a desire to obey Your call for sanctification in my life. I have no strength of my own to invest in abstaining from sexual immorality that would render my efforts successful-I can only drag myself to Your Word or be prickled occasionally before my moments of weakness. But would Your Holy Spirit do a roaring work in conquering this sin in my life as I take steps to do whatever I can. But just as it is with Your Word and with prayer, it's not as if it will do any good unless Your Holy Spirit guides me, speaks to me, and reminds me. So, Spirit be present in all times and let me be filled-so that I may do the Fathers will, so as to please Him. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Paul's Joy

S: But now that Timothy has come to us from you, and has brought us good news of your faith and love, and that you always think kindly of us, longing to see us just as we also long to see you, for this reason, brethren, in all our distress and affliction we were comforted about you through your faith; for now we really live, if you stand firm in the Lord. For what thanks can we render to God for you in return for all the joy with which we rejoice before our God on your account, to as we night and day keep praying most earnestly that we may see your face and may complete what is lacking in your faith?

O: When Paul ministered to the Thessalonians, he prayed for them everyday. He loved them deeply, and he was primarily concerned with their "faith and love" and was overjoyed to hear good news from Timothy-that the church in Thessolonica was doing well and was growing in faith. Upon hearing this, Paul said something that just stuck out so openly and gave me an idea of how much Paul actually cared for those who he ministered to-my favorite part of this passage is "for now we really live, if you stand firm in the Lord." I mean, Paul's life was dedicated to building upon the foundation of Christ, and to see it bear fruit was nothing short of pure joy. He maintains a joyous statement that is a comfort in it's own right-that he was comforted by the news from Timothy regarding the Thessalonians despite his afflictions at the current moment.

But, not only does this reaction show Paul's true feelings, but it reflects the heart and hard work he put into ministering to the Thessalonians. Daily prayer is no easy feat, and neither is planting churches. Paul perhaps may have had an inkling of the value of a person's soul. And because he knew how wonderfully miraculous it was for anyone to even be saved, he reacted accordingly upon hearing how Christ transformed those whom he prayed and worked with.

(A:) How many times do we see people actually taking steps towards growing in their faith? I mean, honestly-In my personal experience, I don't see it that often, and even when I do-my reaction is a mild "Oh, praise God!" but Paul goes as far as to say that life is worth living because the people he invested so heavily in were making progress in their spiritual life. On one particular occasion, however of remembering the fruits of mentoring those on my junior high praise team-the fruit was visible, and well worth the hard work and struggle. They were (and still are) my joy of being on praise team, that people were growing and are now spiritual leaders. I am so proud of them, and they are forever a comfort-despite the frustration they may cause me occasionally, as the growth should never stop.

I think that if I put the time and energy to pursue those around me-teaching them to observe all that Christ commanded, I would face a heck of a lot of trouble and suffering. But, the fruit that it bears would be worth it. I can see that God wants me to have the same joy and passion in investing myself in His work-because the rewards yield eternal dividends. Of course, as He commands it-whether the reward was there or not, I know I should do as He says. The reward is only a bonus!

(O:) But Paul does not stop to pat himself on the back or to announce that he's apostle no. 1 or something. But, he immediately goes on to say that there is no thanks that could be enough to properly thank the Lord for the great work that was happening amongst the Thessalonians.

(A:) How great is that reaction? I mean, it's so easy to take credit for something that we were a part of-Discipleship, ministry, whatever. Glory to the one who takes part in something successful! But, here was a man who suffered greatly for the sake of Christ, and praise God every time something wonderful happened. Here, Paul's heart is clearly seen to be one of a servant, paying proper dues to the King, when he knew that it was a privilege just to even witness such things.

To be honest, I don't think there have been a lot of great things happening in my life. Probably because I'm struggling to get back on my feet-but, I know that all things that are good come from Him. Even the fact that I'm able to stand up again, attempting to remain firm in Christ is a wonderful thing, that would never be possible without the aid of God. So I'll thank Him accordingly to all the things He's done in my life-because despite trouble, there is always reason to rejoice, even if it's just that one thing which always remains: Which is God in His steadfast faithfulness, love, mercy, and grace (which, incidentally, is the biggest reason of rejoicing, anyhow!).

P: Father, to be joyful in Your presence, when life feels desolate or when life is just one huge party-You're always to be praised and thanked, for who You are. I'm sorry for putting off my time with You again-it's not as late as usual, but I'm just glad it even happened tonight. Thanks for speaking to me, yet again! God, I see no reason to throw up my hands and sing, but at the same time, I know that mentality is so off. Would you show me that I should always be rejoicing (Rejoice, always! 1 Thess. 5:16) in You and in those whom You work in? Forgive me for my aloof attitude-I want to be filled with joy for You and for those around me-would You give me that heart? It's one thing to read it, believe it, and try to live it out-but I know I can never genuinely feel joyous without understanding that which what Christ did for me, and still does, and does in others. So remind me-remind me of the cross, so that I can be real with You and real with others-with a joy that stems from knowing You. Because I want to really live, standing firm in You. Take all these things-I believe it would be pleasing before You and glorifying as well. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - You did all that for...what?

S: For you recall, brethren, our labor and hardship, how working night and day so as not to be a burden to any of you, we proclaimed to you the gospel of God. You are witnesses, and so is God, how devoutly and uprightly and blamelessly, we behaved toward you believers; just as you know how we were exhorting and encouraging and imploring each one of you as a father would his own children, so that you would walk in a manner worthy of the God who calls you into His own kingdom and glory.

1 Thessalonians 2:9-12

O: "For you recall, brethren, our labor and hardship, how working night and day so as not to be a burden to any of you, we proclaimed to you the gospel of God. You are witnesses, and so is God, how devoutly and uprightly and blamelessly, we behaved toward you believers;"

When Paul was working with the church of Thessalonica, I see that he and his fellows took it upon themselves to work for their money and provision, so as to not inconvenience the people they stayed with.

I'm sure the church would have been happy to fund Paul and take care of his basic needs, but here Paul demonstrates the determination to keep his relationships thriving with those in his ministry-I'm guessing that it would have been easy to take advantage of his apostleship to vouch for food and shelter, which could have easily been seen as an abuse of power or superiority. But reading on in this passage, not only did Paul strive to humble himself in his position, but also sought out a pure conduct of living, to set an example before the Thessalonians.

(A): It's very easy to get caught up in power in position in the church. It sounds sad, but it's very true. As a former praise leader, I could easily say I abused my privileges to using my keys to church for my own personal use (which weren't massively destructive, as I'm sure it didn't stumble anyone, but it could have if I made a habit of it) in making copies of my own music, borrowing church equipment to my leisure, and of course the free internet/electricity/air conditioning. Looking at Paul, I know I should always set an example in my behaviour and conduct-I will remember that what I do in secret should not be something I'd be ashamed of doing in public. I will be transparent in all things that I do, and I will never take my position of leadership to a point where I could abuse it and use it for my personal gain.

(O, continued:) But what was the heart behind Paul's blameless conduct? "...just as you know how we were exhorting and encouraging and imploring each one of you as a father would his own children, so that you would walk in a manner worthy of the God who calls you into His own kingdom and glory. "

And here comes out another example of discipleship. Apostle Paul's ministry had little to do with ministry, and rather it had much of itself invested in people (namely, God's people). As Paul repeats many times, "...we did not seek glory from men." but Paul sought out the spiritual welfare of those who took the message of the Gospel joyfully and he diligently pursued a means of bolstering their faith. And what better means is there in helping those you disciple grow in faith than by showing them spiritual maturity in your own life? Paul did exactly that-he left no provision for bitterness in his leadership position by taking care of his own finances and such, while also proving to be a mature spiritual leader to be followed after (because he devoutly followed Christ so closely). But, all in the end-Paul never did it to be glorified by men, but to be found faithful before God-working faithfully to see that God would be most glorified, and most lifted on high.

(A:) I could learn a thing or a million from Paul. He worked his butt off for his own food and he made sure that he was a blameless man before many of those who he ministered to. Why? Just so that they could be closer to God. Here was a man who loved the Lord and loved His people-Looking at myself, now-I'm struggling so deeply with even taking time in the Word and my conduct probably faces a million different problems. But I also know that the heart is where it all stems from. Do I really want to see God glorified or am I just here to get a few words of praise from the world? I certainly hope it's not the latter.

P: Lord, You stay as constant as ever. It's kind of funny how I had the biggest doubt that anything would even come up in reading the Word tonight, but You always seem to prove me wrong. Despite my excuses (thinking I needed proper "rest" to really focus) You brought to my attention someone that earnestly sought You out and I see Your message today. You want me to be more like Paul (well, more like Christ) in the sense that he worked straight from the heart. I know quite well that it's just an insult to come before You in a tired and morose manner, not expecting much-but yet again, Your grace is quite prevalent in my life when I least expect it. Thank You. I'm facing a dilemma in my commitment to cultivating greater disciplines of reading Your Word and praying-and because my good habits have been suffering, my spiritual life is too. I mean, it's definitely me-being lazy to unbelievable proportions (I guess this is why sin is so destructive-it creeps in without anyone noticing and then it blows everything to pieces). I'm sorry for how terribly lazy I've been-I guess because I have the time, I choose to waste it through my many excuses of being so "tired" and daily renewal of "I'll do it tomorrow." I'm really sorry for my inconsistency-really ought to learn something from Your constant faithfulness. Anyhow, I pray that I wouldn't screw up tomorrow or the day after and so forth-I'd much rather find my rest in the Word (which, I funnily enough longed for in my bed, but found in the Word, tonight-thanks for answering my prayer!). Would you teach me to live out my faith in earnest? It's so hard-but I'm asking for Your supernatural strength and guidance to plod my stubborn legs along. But, I'll try to keep my weak end of things (actually opening up the Bible and setting times to pray) and then I know You'll be faithful, as always. Praises to You, Lord :]

In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Cling, cling

I cannot earn grace

He pulls away to show how dependent I am of Him

He loves me

S: And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, "All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Matthew 28:18-20

O: One thing I realized today is that Christ loves me unconditionally. This is not an easy truth to take down, because my own standard and impression of love is so inferior to the love that God has for each person in this life. But He loves me, and nothing can change that fact-I mean, just reflecting on His great love for me, it just changes my heart in ways that are just adequately expressed through word or even music (though I may try).

All authority belongs to Christ in heaven and on earth. What is authority? It is the right to command. It is power, and it is law. And so, this is why Christ is King-He alone is Judge and Ruler.

And so, by this authority, all his commandments come into effect for those who are willing to listen and even those who aren't willing to listen-because, no matter what (by the evidence given by the latter portion of the verse) He is Sovereign. For those who don't listen, they will be judged. I'm guessing that the Great Commission is probably one of the many significant commandments Jesus issues-but I believe we should take a special notice of how Christ proclaims His authority over heaven and earth and then continues with: "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; "

It's a simple command. Go out and disciple people-and the means of discipleship? Baptizing them (in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit) and teaching them to observe all commandments (notice how there would be a great cycle if the disciples themselves discipled...as they did...and how it continues to this day). Making disciples doesn't mean to make people rigidly following rules and regulations-following His commandments is much more as Christ Himself said "If you love Me, you will keep my commandments." (John 14:15) and "For this is the love of God that we keep His commandments. And His commandments are not burdensome." (1 John 5:3) How can it be a burden to love God, who is perfect in every way and somehow loves me enough to die for me? It cannot be a burden to follow God, and listen to that which He commands, because all that He is and all that comes from Him is good. His Word is good (so basically His Son is good) and His Word/Christ commands that we disciple to bring more people to love God (people who keep His commandments).

A: Taking this as a whole - Christ is the ultimate authority, thereby meaning the Word is the ultimate authority (more Christ and Word parallels in the next LJ)...But I will not begrudgingly follow Him just because He is the very authority. But because I love who He is and what He has done, I will listen. I don't want to do anything otherwise-if I love Him, I will keep His commandments, and should it be that I don't really love Him, my life will reflect disobedience and rebellion. I will take in whomever He sends and disciple them-teaching them to love God with all their heart, mind, soul, and strength. For it takes that much to truly love God-and there is no means of loving Him without the Holy Spirit's guidance so I (Pray:) that all who come my way would have the Holy Spirit pressing upon their soul for change and a humility that seeks out God and who He is.

P: God, nothing but praises for Your Spirit's conviction upon my heart today. How righteous You are and how hopelessly lost in sin am I? To cling to the Holy of holies, is my desire.

Lazy, weak and submitted to the flesh, and a liar am I. God, without You, I would be so condemned. Please forgive me and wash me clean of this dirt that covers heart, soul, and mind-that which is so disgusting before Your eyes. I want to hate it, loathe it, and be the furthest from it. The only way to do that is to cling to Christ. To cling to Him is my greatest desire.

Thank You, for another day-for people You use in my life. Thank You for the breath I breathe, the songs I can sing, and this life that which will be fully conformed to Your Son's image one day. It is a testament to Your majesty-that this life, despite the suffering and toil, that evidence of Your beauty and goodness is present each and every day.

Lord, what can I ask but for You prompt Your Spirit to do a work in my heart so that I may be after Your heart in earnest? I never know if I love You, but You have shown me clearly, that those who love You, keep Your commandments-so would You teach me what You command? (send me to Your Word!) And would You always push me to uphold them in loving obedience? I only want to cling to You. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - The Price of Christ

S: Then one of the twelve, named Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said, "What are you willing to give me to betray Him to you?" And they weighed out thirty pieces of silver to him.

Matthew 26:14-15

Even my close friend in whom I trusted,

Who ate my bread,

Has lifted his heel against me.

But You, O Lord, be gracious to me and raise me up,

That I may repay them.

By this I know that You are pleased with me,

Because my enemy does not shout in triumph over me.

As for me, You uphold me in my integrity,

And You set me in Your presence forever.

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel,

From everlasting to everlasting.

Amen and amen.

Psalm 41:9-13

O: For some reason this verse stuck to me as I tried to finish my reading. I never thought much of Judas, other than the fact that he was the one who betrayed Jesus to the high priests. But coming across this particular passage, I felt convicted of the question the Judas asked the high priests: "What are you willing to give me to betray Him to you?"

This reveals a few things about Judas. He was already willing to betray Jesus for some sort of monetary or material compensation. Extrapolating from there, Judas infinitely insults the worth of Christ by showing that he neither cares for or understands Jesus in any way. Judas is a murderer, who has little regard for any person other than himself.

But, worse, is that Judas' attitude does not die out with his hanging. The question that which he asked is still asked today. Such a painful question, because I feel like that's what we ask the world and the tempter everyday. What would we get, in return for abandoning our Lord? Sinful pleasures and worldly lusts that gratify momentarily-we trade our gold for glitter and stickers.

And so, the world and Satan answers deftly to the flesh that cries out the question that Judas asked, long ago-Forget His grace and sacrifice, we have one life to live on this earth and that's it. Truth is discarded because lies look more attractive.

By 30 pieces of silver, Judas received his payment. By our means of living out our fleshly desires and sinfulness, we receive our payment. In Exodus 21:32, the price of a slave was 30 pieces of silver. The Saviour of the world was sold out for the same price as a slave-it seems almost fitting as Christ describes Himself: "...just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but the serve, and to give His life a ransom for many." (Mt. 20:28) And so He was servant to the fullest degree, even at the price he was betrayed.

A: I often forget that old habits and old snares are still a danger - I was seriously humbled yesterday (as well as exhausted by work work work). I will remember that giving into my flesh without a fight is the same as selling out Jesus-honestly, I'm sure many people would have done what Judas did-but I want to make sure I'm that person that at least has an inkling of the worth of Christ. If I really saw the infinite value of His sacrifice, I know that would keep me from falling for the snares that which He died to save me from. I suppose that's what this is-a daily living to see Christ more and more clearly in this life of mine. I will fight for a tangible encounter with God each day-so as to not compromise what He did for me-because I know if I don't ready myself in His Word quickly enough or take the time to pray, nothing will change and I will fall for the same sins and see nothing but a drought and motions.

P: Father, Your majesty humbles. There is no one like You:
For Your righteousness, O God, reaches to the heavens,
You who have done great things;
O God, who is like You?

Psalm 72:19

My flesh is weak. My resolve is weak-and I am sorry that I continually think I can battle my flesh without Your Spirit. Father, I pray that I may be more vigilant in this daily fight for my holiness. Show me the way, I know it may be tough and it may be difficult on me-but I know it's worth it. Discipline me as You see fit and teach me to walk in all Your ways. Please forgive me of my transgressions as I turn to walk in righteousness. I know it's never supposed to be a checklist of how many days I can go without sinning or anything, but I hope that my repentance would be genuine and assisted by the Holy Spirit-drive the desire for holiness into me Lord, because I know You desire Your bride to be clean.

Thank You for the humbling experiences I've faced this week. I have failed to love like You-but I press on and I am thankful that You always bring reconciliation as a priority in my life. Thank You for Jun-I pray that He may commit to spending more time with You as well as leaving no room for regret as this year passes. I pray that You may do a powerful work in his heart and I pray that he would present his baggage before Your feet, ready to walk with You, Lord. Thank You for good friends and good people in my life that have really made an impact with me.

I pray that You would remind me of this passage. I would ask that there is no price, no payment that would be enough for me to sell out my Saviour-even the pleasures of sin, I pray would be quashed the moment I look back on the critical mistake Judas made in failing to see the supreme worth of Christ. I pray that You would draw me to the cross when I am tempted-I need You so badly, because I know that I just cannot win a fight against myself without my Saviour. It is impossible. So I pray that You would be my 'rock of habitation' - my very dwelling place. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - With the Faithful...and the Faithless...

S: For to everyone who has, more shall be given, and he will have an abundance; but from the one who does not have, even what he does have shall be taken away. Throw out the worthless slave into the outer darkness; in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

Matthew 26:29-30

O: Parable of the talents. I've read this one a lot, but I feel like there's much more to it. I used to teach it about God-given gifts and talents-in teaching praise team to strive for excellence and always seeking to improve and be faithful with what we've been given. No matter how little or how great of a responsibility we've been given, we're all called to be faithful.

After reading the end of this passage, I notice that Jesus makes an exciting promise for those who are faithful - "For to everyone who has, more shall be given, and he will have an abundance..." So...Everyone who has what? Faithfulness? I think it means everyone who has been faithful with what they've been given, more will be given. This is very much where I believe Pastor Jason gets a saying that I remember very clearly-those who are responsible with a little will be given much more.

That reminds me of a passage in Luke 12:42-44, 48 -

"Who then is the faithful and sensible steward, whom his master will put in charge of his servants to give them their rations at the proper time? Blessed is that slave whom his master finds so doing when he comes. Truly I say to you that he will put him in charge of all his possessions...."

"From everyone who has been given much, much will be required; and to whom they entrusted much, of him they will ask all the more."

Of course, now I realize that it has much more to do with all things God has given me rather than just musical talents (although musical talents are to be used accordingly as well). I know that God has entrusted me as a servant to use what I have faithfully-as a student, I need to be a good steward of my relationships and finances and so forth. Everything I have has been entrusted to me (as everything I have, has been given to me by the Lord) - Some of these things are big responsibilities and could easily be abused. I could spend all my money on music equipment, neglect important people placed in my life, and other examples of selfish ways of living. I've come to learn that God can use anything from me buying someone lunch to constant prayer for someone - This idea of being responsible ties in with many things that Jesus taught about - personal relationships, disciplines, serving. In all responsibilities one is given in a job or career, that person is expected to have a standard of work or else they would be fired. In the same way, God expects us to work diligently in our lives, for His sake-for such things are good.

(A): So I should work very diligently indeed. As God intends for me to be blessed in greater abundance by being faithful with what He has given me, why should I withhold His blessing from me? It's like something I remember Lynn telling me about not reading the Word...something along the lines of "Why wouldn't you read? It's like saying 'DON'T BLESS ME!' " God loves His people and I know He wants to bless me in abundance. I will be faithful with all that I have-my time, money, and the people that I cherish. It's a big commitment to live the way Christ calls us to live-but it's well worth it as I can tell from today's reading...

(O): However, the second part of today's reading is definitely scary. Those who are not faithful will have what they have, taken away from them. I suppose it's almost as if someone gave me money to feed my kids but instead I spend it on drugs and run away or something. That person would probably be very angry that I took advantage of what was given to me to fulfill my selfish desires. In the same way, God won't stand for His gifts being used in an abusive and selfish manner-I see people living for their gain each day, but I know that God will make good on His promises. People who are light-handed with what they have been given will inevitably have everything taken away from them, one day.

(A): With that being said, I should be very careful-Yes, I should live faithfully and responsibly by that which God has given me. However, it's so easy to say one thing, attempt to live that way and yet fall apart only moments later. I will very carefully consider all aspects of my life and see where I am falling short of being faithful (many areas, I'd assume).

Money - I could probably cut back on the food and splurging of new music equipment. I should also make it a habit of giving offering on a more regular basis.

People - I think being a faithful shepherd is really difficult, but if I put in more time and genuinely seek out God's changing touch to manifest in the lives of others, I can be more diligent in hanging out with them and praying for them as well as getting them into the Word. What more can I do? But it's such a large task to make it a reality. Slowly but surely-I need to be diligent.

Discipline - I've come to a point where I need to organize my time to literally make time for all the reading and praying that SHOULD be in my life, but isn't quite there. It's like as if I'm putting it off-but here I am writing it out to remind myself that everyday I need to shed another layer of my sinfulness and get off of my sloth-horse and get moving.

P: Good and gracious God, how wonderful it is to receive Your blessing. You are a generous God in bringing about such abundance-and yet, even if the blessings were not there, You are still good. Praises to You :] Thank You for this time that was repeatedly delayed by my distractions, but Your patience won me over in the end. Praises to YOU!

Lord, I am weary from battling sin and losing. I am sorry for losing myself to my flesh, yet again. I know that a daily crucifying of myself is in order and I am sorry that on some days I am so lazy and stricken with lethargy. Forgive my diligence, as I've learned today that I am not very faithful...

But thank You-as I've already mentioned, You have been so patient with me and have shown me diligence in Your Word. Today was a productive day and I thank You for the people in Pathway (and Aaron Chung) that have taken upon themselves to keep me accountable-I feel very blessed to have such people in my life. I pray that You would make me an encouragement and blessing in their lives as well.

Lord, it seems almost strange to ask for this, but I want to be faithful in all areas of my life! It seems that we only need to have an LJ count and prayer life to be set-but I know that You look upon my entire heart and my entire life...and I want it to be fully submitted to You, Lord. I pray that You would mold my heart to be one of a faithful heart, devoted to Your calling. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Ready When You are Jesus

S: "Now learn the parable from the fig tree: when it's branch has already become tender and puts forth it's leaves, you know that summer is near; so you too, when you see all these things, recognize that He is near, right at the door. Truly I say to you, this generation will not pass away until all these things take place. Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will not pass away..."

Matthew 24:32-35

O: This is what Jesus says after He talked about a "great tribulation" and he talked of people who will come as false Christs and false prophets. He also spoke of His return to the world and how He will send His angels and gather His elect (His people who have persevered-But the one who endures to the end, he will be saved. Matthew 24:13).

Simply put, when we see all of these things, in comparison to the fig tree coming into it's season of fruitfulness, it's the same as knowing that God is near-that Christ is on His way of returning and that we are well on our way of being with Him. I guess the real significance of knowing when Christ is near would be the actual events happening-but looking towards the end of such terrible things is the means of getting through it.

Which generation is He referring to? The world in general? Because I know that the Rapture hasn't yet occurred (obviously), but looking at the word pass-maybe it means that this generation won't ever die out completely until all of the tribulation and return of Christ has all happened? As the last sentence of this chunk refers to Heaven and earth passing away (Heaven will pass away?) it sounds as if they would be done away with (a new earth and new bodies for the elect, might be what it means? As the people on earth will definitely be dwindled down to those whom God choice for Himself)...

The very end is my favorite, however-and I believe this to be a promise God makes: "Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will not pass away." Christ's words will never fade. I believe just reading them today is a testimony as to how His words have never failed and they are as relevant (if not more) today as much as the day they were written.

A: Looking that being with Christ is the end of such things is the means of perseverence-I believe that the tribulation will occur before the Rapture and the church will be purged of all of what it lacks and only the faithful will remain. So what shall I do? I will be a vigilant watctmen (Isaiah 62:6) just like Christ tells us to be in the next part of this chapter (Therefore be on the alert, for you do not know which day your Lord is coming. Matthew 24:42) - Everyday is the Lord's and we need to always be ready day and night. For by looking heavenward (or, I should say Christ-ward, lol), we truly live in a fashion that which glorifies God. Everyday is the Lord's!

P: Father, You are a wonderful provider. Today I have seen evidence of Your love in little disciples and I have heard and took in Your Word on women in the church-How beautiful You have made today. You have made it so, in the way that You may receive the most glory and indeed it is all Yours!

Today, I put off my time to really get into the Word-I'm sorry that I chose to eat and hang out with others when hanging with You is exactly what I needed to get through yet another day with blessings and guidance, aplenty. I will set my priorities upon prayer and a diligent heart towards Christ.

Thank You for the opportunity to pray for a great sister and also showing me that when things are going awry for so many-all I can do is ask You to take hold, Father and make it all right. I also thank You for just how great today was, honestly-Despite all the hardships others faced, I am glad that I could even be present to ask for Your comfort and love to be present upon people I love and care about.

Father, I ask for a diligent heart. One heart so diligently focused upon being with Christ, and in doing so-preparing for His glorious return, ready to present myself as a living sacrifice, sanctified by His hand. I want to be ready for Your coming, so prepare me Father for Your Son!

In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - David's Reaction to His Sin

A series of Scripture that I thought was particularly wonderful and a definite blessing. The Psalm is great too! I'm going to definitely go back on that one as well...

(S): Then David's anger burned greatly against the man, and he said to Nathan, "As the Lord lives, surely the man who has done this deserves to die. He must make restitution for the lamb fourfold, because he did this thing and had no compassion."

2 Samuel 12:5-6

(O): As I read the story of David and how he took Uriah's wife and and impregnated her, I was very sad. Not only did he willingly take her, but he also set up a ploy to have Uriah killed, so as to not face him. This was David's falling point and it shows the imperfection of even the greatest of Israel's kings. This particular point in Scripture, Nathan told David a story that represented the evil David had committed against God and immediately David's reaction was both surprising but also normal.

Unknowingly, David condemned himself and basically seeing sin from the perspective of that which of how God sees it-even David was enraged at the rich man who stole the ewe from the poor man. In the same way, I feel that if we ever are to condemn sinners, we are basically condemning ourselves. David was appalled at the atrocity the rich man had committed-but how sad is it that David didn't know it was him all along.

(S): Why have you despised the word of the Lord by doing evil in His sight? You have struck down Uriah the Hittite with the sword, have taken his wife to be your wife, and have killed him with the sword of the sons of Ammon. Now therefore, the sword shall never depart from your house, because you have despised Me and have taken the wife of Uriah the Hittite.

2 Samuel 12:9-10

(O): How does God respond? In a just and righteous manner. Anyone can see that David messed up. Big time. God punishes David by cursing him as, "the sword shall never depart from your house..." I wonder what that actually means? Does it mean that David will never rest from war? Or does it mean that he will face his own troubles by the sword? That he should suffer in the same way? I'm not sure, I guess I have to read on. The part that got me the most was "because you have despised Me..." Oh man. This is how serious sin is. That should you sin against God, you DESPISE Him...that the very act of sin is hating God. That is truly terrible, but it makes sense-because God is an absolutely holy God and those who sin will infinitely offend an infinitely holy God who cannot commune with sin. To sin means to hate God. Crazy.

(S): Then David said to Nathan, "I have sinned against the Lord." And Nathan said to David, "The Lord also has taken away your sin; you shall not die..."

2 Samuel 12:13

(O): The thing I respect most about David is that he didn't merely say he sinned against God-reading in the Psalm 51, he said much MORE than that. He was in anguish. His very soul was troubled to the point of agony-he was a broken and contrite man before the Lord and he humbly asked God to forgive a broken man. And so, what do I learn about my Lord? He is truly merciful and truly forgiving-here, we see a great example of how God makes good on His promises. Should his people turn away from their sins and repent, He would hear them and heal their land.

(S): So David arose from the ground, washed, anointed himself, and changed his clothes; and he came into the house of the Lord and worshiped.

He said, "While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept; for I said, "Who knows, the Lord may be gracious to me, that the child may live.' But now he has died; why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me."

2 Samuel 12:20, 22-23

(O): After David fasted and prayed for his son, born of Bathsheba-his son inevitably died as God promised that he would surely die. But David's response is amazing in my opinion. He prayed and interceded for his child in the hopes of God being gracious-but God, being good, made good on His promise. David recognized that he received a great punishment, but also recognized that God was still God. He got up and worshiped God. In the midst of sin, repentance and mourning-David still knew who his God was, and that is why I respect king David so much.

A: Should I ever condemn in anger or in outright judgment, that I would understand I condemn myself. I can only rebuke and remind myself and others that we are all sinners-when we feel justified in condemning others for sinning, we may even see how God sees us: Blind to our own sins. I will daily remember the cross and see the incredibly huge debt that was erased.

From recognizing my sin, I will fall down before God in realization of much needed repentance. This was the only time I recall David ever sinning. I probably have to fall down before God everyday. I will also remember that God is merciful and because He sent His Son, I am forgiven.

And in His wonderful grace, I will worship Him despite my suffering. Will I mourn my sins or flinch from the discipline my Father gives? No. He is gracious and He is swift to deal with His children in correcting them. I will be obedient and submissive to His ways-as God is God.

P: Father, You are an enduring and patient God. I love that so much about You. You are also so justified and righteous. In all ways You are holy-and that is so praiseworthy. It is a wonderful thing to serve a holy and upright King-there is no one greater than You! In this time of investing myself in Your Word, I find more and more things about You that are great. I pray that it would become not just things about You, but that I would just KNOW You to greater extents.

I have unresolved conflict amongst friends and I see that I complain so much against my situations when I bring it upon myself (and yet I blame You a lot of the time). I am sorry for these things, and I will do my best to react just like David when it comes to sin-with revulsion and with repentance. For You hate sin for sin makes us haters of all that is good and holy, which is You.

God, tonight was awesome! I'm so blessed to see our three ministries gather in one place to worship You. It was truly great, but I pray there would an extended change and a newfound unity amongst Your body, God. But, I felt refreshed and I found myself wanting to be more in Your Word. Thank You so much!

Lord, I ask that I could only be more intimate with You. I feel like I'm not incredibly close to You-that these prayers feel like letters almost. But God, I want to face to face with You everyday. I want to yearn for You and desire You in ways I can't even imagine-but because You are infinite, I kind of imagine there's more than this. There must be more than this. So God, I'm going to try and do my best to chase after You-everyone always tells me that You're chasing me, so maybe we can meet somewhere in between :] But, truly, God-I want more of You. Your Word is a lamp and Your Spirit is like water. Light my way and hydrate my soul, Father-this sounds selfish, but I want to be selfish for You. I want to see and hear and feel You more-that I may sit at Your feet and dwell in Your courts, to love You and seek You. This is what I ask-all for the sake of laying down my life to honor Christ. All these things in Christ I pray, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Many are called, but few are chosen

S: Then he said to his slaves, 'The wedding is ready, but those who were invited were not worthy. Go therefore to the main highways, and as many as you find there, invite to the wedding feast.'

But when the king came in to look over the dinner guests, he saw a man there who was not dressed in wedding clothes, and he said to him, "Friend, how did you come in here without wedding clothes?" And the man was speechless. Then the king said to the servants, 'Bind him hand and foot, and throw him into the outer darkness; in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.' For many are called, but few are chosen.

Matthew 22:8-9, 11-14

O: This comes from the last passage of the Parable of the Marriage Feast - The parables that Jesus tells often confuse me to no end. I'm all about symbolism, but I know that parables are usually translated with the intention of having one lesson and one important meaning, so I often cannot understand parables. But I'm making the guess that the important point was heavily emphasized at the end of this parable.

What is the one moral lesson? In the last two parables I've read - (Two Sons, and Landowner) it seems that these parables seem to all be similar. The kingdom of God was something the Jewish leaders thought they had in their grasp-and yet Jesus Christ, the very Messiah awaited as salvation and King; was utterly despised and rejected by them.

In the conclusion of the Two Sons, Jesus told the leaders that sinners and Gentiles repented after hearing John, and yet they rejected John (whom Jesus emphasized was in the way of righteousness-that's pretty big Matthew 21:32).

In the conclusion of the Landowner, Jesus yet again compares the Jewish leaders who hardened their hearts and says that the kingdom would be taken from them and given to people who produce fruit of it. (Matthew 21:43)

For many are called, but few are chosen. The Jews were not prepared. Therefore, the kingdom of heaven (is this the same as the kingdom of God? Is this heaven? Er...Salvation?) was taken from those who did not recognize the invitation to it. Jesus said twice to the chief priests that people they regarded as lowly sinners would get into heaven before they did. I know I'm sort of placing a certain symbolic conclusion upon how the Pharisees are like the ones who rejected the invitation and went about their ways, thinking they could still attend-but in reality, they essentially rejected the kingdom! Many are called, but they fail to see that. And with that being said, few are chosen.

A: Should I be so assured of my salvation ? Do I look down upon others and think that they're so disillusioned, thinking that I'm well on my way while they're going to be condemned? I think I do sometimes. This parable pressed onto me to re-evaluate myself everyday. Is my faith in Christ? Or do I just think it is? When I see the Pharisees, I often wonder if I'm so blind-thinking that all my bible studies and such could be an extra reason to know I'm saved. But truly, salvation was clearly defined by Christ-as He is the way, truth, and life. No one else. But, I will walk by that daily-not renewing my salvation of course, but always questioning and always asking God to search me. I won't be so assured by anything other than Jesus Himself. And if I'm not seeing Him or yearning after Him, I will yet again come before the cross (daily) and be assured, yet again-not by my merits, but by His unmerited grace. Would I only be so blessed to know each day that I'm chosen.

P: Father, You are mercifully patient with those who reject You. I pray that You would be honored in my life-be what I adore and love and seek. For, I could hold onto Your Word like it's nothing important and come before You so dull-but I could never change the fact that You are good. Thank You.

Lord, my flesh plagues me yet again with lust. I am sorry that I am still trying to discipline myself. But, Lord, remind me to run and pray and use the sword of the Spirit to mortify my sin, daily. I want to be consecrated not for the weekend, but for this life! I know I may fail, but You are infinitely beyond me, so I ask that You honor my repentance of these things. That I may be daily renewed in You.

Father, I thank You for the people in my life that always bring great encouragement and inspiration. The brothers and sisters on praise team and in Pathway are always a blessing. Thank You! I pray Your favor would be upon all of them.

God, I would ask that You would resolve conflict and bring unity to Your people. I ask that You bring healing upon JP's father, that it should glorify Your Son and bring praise and honor to Him. I also pray that You would do what You see fit for tonight's prayer/praise night. I don't really know what to expect-but I really ask that You would bring these three ministries together to bring forth an overflow of discipleship and unity for Your glory. All these things in Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Prayer, Believing, Receiving

S: And Jesus answered and said to them, "Truly I say to you if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, 'Be taken up and cast into the sea,' it will happen. And all things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive."

Matthew 21:21-22

O: This was when Jesus was hungry and He couldn't find any figs on a nearby fig tree. Finding nothing but leaves, Jesus said aloud that the tree would never bear fruit again and immediately it withered and presumably, died. Naturally, the disciples were amazed and they asked Jesus how it even happened.

This particular passage makes me wonder why Jesus cursed the fig tree. Maybe it was to lead up to teaching on faith. When I really think about it though-the tree didn't have fruit and any tree that doesn't bear fruit...(wait this is a verse...checks biblegateway) It's from the scary passage in Matthew 7 upon trees that bear good or bad fruit. Every tree that doesn't bear good fruit will be cut down and thrown in the fire...

I guess it's not like extreme similarity, considering the tree had no fruit at all-but if Jesus came, and he saw no good fruit in me...or even fruit at all, I have a feeling that I'd be one of the burned trees.

Anyhow, moving on - Jesus said something perhaps even more amazing than cursing a fig tree to immediate withering. That any of us who have faith, without doubt, could just as easily curse a fig tree to wither as well as tell a mountain to be thrown into the sea. Fig trees, are huge trees-I don't know if I can walk up to a fig tree and tell it to wither, because those are some seriously mighty trees. The same goes for the mountains-but here we have a reference back to Jesus telling His disciples that genuine faith, even in the smallest quantities bring about large, powerful changes (Matthew 17:20). Weak people rely on an infinitely powerful God and the result is that mighty things are done. Herein lies the power of prayer-not that prayer itself has power. Many people of many religions have practiced the art of prayer. However, the question is whom we pray to and why.

This reminds me of the statement repeated by a brother in many prayer sessions as he led-"Did you know it is an act of pride to not pray? It's absurd to think that we can do anything on our own, so we must pray-because God is the one who moves mountains, not us. By not praying, we are basically saying that we can handle everything on our own." And rightly so he said. Those who wish to do anything in the kingdom must pray-for the Father may accomplish our finite tasks with a mere lift of His finger or a batting of His eye (not even, lol), but we can hardly feed or cloth ourselves without falling to pieces over how we can do it (and yet the Lord still provides even those necessities).

But prayer has little to do with the bare minimum-it does not scrape people by in their lives, and nor does it lavishly spoil us with riches and extravagance. In fact, prayer has nothing to do with our own preservation-Rather it is a means of expressing the desire for God to be glorified and asking God to glorify His Son. He works in our lives and the things we used to selfishly desire fade and we desire nothing more than what He desires-for what we want should always be what He wants. And so, "...in all things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." Prayer has power because the God we pray to has power-and He doesn't ask us to pray to get by in life or for our own benefit-but for mountains to be moved and for huge frackin' trees to be withered. Basically, God calls us to pray for big things to happen for His kingdom and in our lives.

A: I will strive to have a faith that does not doubt-and in doing so, my prayers will be that of moving mountains and cursing trees. I will not pray petty prayers, nor will I pray for my own desires (Unless they're God-given).

P: God, You are infinite. And I am so tiny in comparison to You. Your strength holds me and all others who have placed their faith in Your Son completely, without any hindrance. How awesome is our God. Lord, I come to You, still sluggish in my ways and lazy-Father, forgive me for being so prideful in the sense that I don't pray or make the effort to spend time with You. These LJs become almost mechanical and burdensome, but Father-teach me to know that I'm spending time with the LORD and not with a book or nothingness. I want that encounter with You everyday in my life. In my book, that is definitely a big prayer-because I don't know many people who say that they encounter the Lord of Lords on a daily basis, because then they'd be pretty dang excited and at peace. But beyond that, when I intercede for those in my life, I pray that You would prod my heart and remind me that You are infinite and the things I pray for are so finite-It is easy for You and that should be my basis of faith in You...to the point that I believe it is already answered and done, as long as I should be faithful and without doubt. Bring my unbelief to rest, God and teach me to glorify You in all ways. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Over 100 posts

Not that it's like incredibly special or something, but I realized that I'm over 100 posts now on blogspot! Of course, I think at least ten or more of them are just random regular posts that have nothing to do with my LJ's, but it is nice to see something last.

I remember the days of Xanga and Livejournal (lol!) were the seriously cool blogs to have back in the day. When I go back and read my old posts, it's pretty crazy to see the change that's happened over the years.

So, cheers, to having yet another significant blog. This time around, it's more than just that, though-it's far more precious than memories because it's a record of what God teaches me on a daily (or if I suck, not so daily) basis. CHEEEEERS!

Soap - Walking to be Last

S: But many who are first will be last; and the last, first.

So the last shall be first, and the first last.

It is not this way among you, but whoever wishes to become great among you shall be your servant, and whoever wishes to be first among you shall be your slave; just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.

Matthew 19: 30, 20:16, 26-28

O: The idea and ambition of being great was flipped upside down by Jesus. He said these very words that seem almost ridiculous-if anyone wants to be a great and prominent person in the kingdom, they need to be the last-slave and servant of all. Anyone who wanted to be first will be last and whoever is last, will be first.

And by these words, it's easy enough to see that people who want to be esteemed by men, will put their energies into becoming great-their ambition centers around themselves and how they can build themselves up in the eyes of all those around them. And of course, that will be their own reward-being loved and well received by those around them. However, anyone looking out for their own selfish schedule will certainly not hold any honor in heaven before God-as they chose not to discard their means of serving themselves, only.

The first will be last...meaning those who consider themselves first, will be considered last in the eyes of God, as every man will be given their due.

But the last will be first. Those who would discard their love of self and gravitate towards serving others would be greatly esteemed by God-as Christ said Himself; He didn't come to be served by all people (despite the fact that He would have been entirely justified if they did), but rather to serve them in His ministry and sacrifice. Thus, Christ set Himself as the servant of all and esteemed Himself beyond any other person that ever lived and beyond any person that will live. Christ is revered above all other men, because He was set apart to be the lowest and most humble servant of God.

(A): To be last means to serve. Not like serve in every ministry possible kind of serve-but the service rendered towards God and His people that comes out of the joyful obedience of a servant wanting to please their Father. There is a sort of ambition of wanting to be great in the eyes of the Father, and that is called obedience. God commands us to love Him and love others-and I believe that I can love others by serving them out of a genuine heart. By knowing God, listening to Him and following Him-the means of loving and serving others is made clear. To be last means to serve God-and a servant will most obviously obey his master. To be last means to serve others, always considering their needs and their hearts.

I want to be great in the kingdom. I will be a servant to all, reporting to the Lord in joyful obedience to all His ways. I will be strive to be last, as Christ was-because He did it, I want to be like Him in all His ways of serving and love.

P: God, You are the first and You are the last. No one is more greatly esteemed than Your Son, Christ. He set the way of true service to You-not because He was only a servant, but He was a beloved Son and friend. Lord, I'm sorry that I lack love and intimacy for others and especially You, oh God. Forgive me for my wandering ways, and would you breathe that warmth back into my heart? I don't want to bring my offering before You to receive rank or to be greatly esteemed even amongst the church. But I want to be received by You and to be greatly esteemed in Your eyes. I know that I can never make You love me more than You do right now, and I thank You so much for that. Despite my lack of love or service, You love me the same-day by day; And that makes me want to humble myself before others and serve them with the same love and devotion that You show me all the time. Teach me to be last, as I walk with You, Jesus. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria

Soap - Seek Him

Today, I saw Josh's younger brother, Kyle, at church. It was wonderful seeing him there and while praying for him and his family, I realized he said something to me that didn't quite strike me until now. "I wish Josh and Joseph were here."

I don't say it very often because no one really knows my family at NVC, but I wish my family would come to church. I realized that Kyle is the youngest in his family as well, and it seems that he's holding dearly to the faith he has-which is honestly a great blessing for me to witness, but he has a concern for his family to be right with God-and that is even greater. I was and I am still very glad to know that he feels the same as I do about our families.

S: Seek the Lord and His strength;
Seek His face continually.

1 Chronicles 16:11

O: I remember defining what seeking meant. Searching earnestly for...to try and find. This is simply the definition. But seeking requires a certain amount of effort. This verse taken from David's psalm of thanksgiving as the Ark of the Covenant had finally been returned to Israel. It touches upon three things David urges his people to do in praise of God and who He is.

But I personally think it's just good advice(application). Especially for my wobbly legs and spiritual frailty in this time.

(A) Seek the Lord. Find God ? Will I find Him in a special spot or particular place? Of course. The living God can be found in the Word-Jesus is the Word. Snap, I'm hearing what Jesus is saying just by reading even just one verse. I used to think that I needed to spend hours upon hours praying to even snatch of glimpse of God, but God will come to those who seek Him. I wonder if that desire is in me? I often say I need more of God, but if my words rung true with my actions, wouldn't the need push the seeking? Deep down, I believe that I have lost a great deal of passion for God because I'm hearing so much about Him, rather than sitting at His feet, listening to what He has to say. Maybe, I'm not hearing or reading right...

(A) Seek His strength. But before I even try to listen-I need to God to help me even begin listening. I need His strength to carry me along. Man, I pray to get my focus going. I pray to get my understanding. And then I pray to be passionate about the truth I learn about. If I am finding and centering all things around Christ, I'm sure I will find His strength. But I need to pray for all of those things, and when I don't-I know I only cut down my real time spent with God in even doing these lifejournals.

(A) Seek His face continually. Diligence. Man, I suck at being diligent. But I know that God won't come to me on a silver platter-It's a daily thing. Needing and knowing in desperation that God is greater, but we can't enjoy Him or be satisfied in Him until He meets with us. There are days where I am so dull and dry, but to overcome that I need to seek God out everyday through these disciplines. I wish it could be easy, God just coming to meet with me whenever I ask, but I know it's so much more than just asking-it's actually looking to know the Person Himself, personally bonding with the friend who is also Saviour. I want to be face to face with Him.

P: Almighty God, You said that if we ask, seek and knock we will receive. God, Your promises reflect on your loving kindness-that You would meet with Your people and dwell amongst them. You are indeed worthy of praise-to have humbled Yourself and come before me as a person. Teach me to breathe Your words in deeply-because I struggle so much. I'm so crappy in my ways that there's no other way for me to understand other than by Your Spirit's direction and guidance. Give me the passion to seek You and Your strength, as well as Your face-constantly and consistently. Everyday, a battle just to hear You utter another word of love for me-so that I may be devoted to You, as devoted as You are to us. It's crazy how You are. Thank You. In Christ, amen.

Soli Deo Gloria