They have forsaken Me,
The fountain of living waters,
To hew for themselves cisterns,
Broken cisterns
That can hold no water."
Jeremiah 2:13
I have spent a large portion of my time this early morning looking over many different articles and looking over transliterations of words in the bible and yet this verse stopped me and I found that God was trying to speak to me.
That I have not come to Him in loving obedience-that I am a despised and wretched soul that only covers his sin with lies and a facade that barely keeps the general public from seeing the stain upon my soul. My rebellion against Him has torn me apart, left dry, cracked and completely miserable. Completely miserable because I have tasted and I have drank my fill in Christ-and I have been satisfied. But, I ask myself, why did I come crawling back to my own vomit like a dog when living water and the bread of life is before me. That, despite the abundance of Christ before me, I chose my vomit and then relieved myself on some bread and drink on a few choice days.
And here, my doubt lies-why am I not thirsty? I want to be thirsty. Should I not desire righteousness? Am I so dull, so dry and cracked in the very mouth of my heart that I've forgotten the sweetness of the living water that which quenches my soul?
But, yet again - I wonder if I desire true repentance - To come back to Christ and by faith receive forgiveness and righteousness. That by the Spirit, I would receive all such blessings that are drawn from Christ, from where the very living waters flow. I would surely hope so-because I realize that my current state, one who has rejected the fountain of living water and I feel as if I'm a broken cistern.
I should never have treated the abundance of Christ so lightly. I want to be delivered from this damnable sin that holds me at the very neck-I hate how it runs my life and how I can't do anything about it on my own. So I turn to you Jesus, for your righteousness to cover me. Oh, overflow in this broken cistern, God-that I may be satisfied in You. That my drawing of water would never be paused-rather that I would continually drink, by your word.
A turning of my soul to Your authority is not of my own work-I pray for a sanctification, Holy Spirit-that I may turn to Jesus as Lord, daily. I pray for a deeper longing and thirst for things that are eternal-this righteousness which cloths me, blessings in wisdom and knowledge as you reveal more to me through Your word. That I would never turn from the fount, which is Christ. All these things I pray in Your Son's holy name, amen.
Soli Deo Gloria
